#2 Being selfish.

Some people remember their childhood, but if it wasn't for my Grandpa Doug's videos, i wouldn't have any memories. I mean, some people remember being a baby, how?!

I don't even remember what i had for dinner yesterday... (It was probably Mcdonalds)

In Doug's baby videos i was mostly at my Nanny Jeans. I do remember growing up on her canal boat. But then again, i think i only remember that because of the videos...

Isn't it crazy that we seem to forget the good things in our lives, but the bad things we always remember...

My mum left my dad when i was 17. I was going dance college in Coventry at the time, i always had so much energy it was crazy! I used to love Performing Arts, i was in musicals as a kid, i played Annie and all sorts, but i don't do any of that anymore. I guess as we grow older, our priorities change, they have to really. Or do they?

Okay okay maybe i just got lazy....... We all get lazy with things. Whether it be paying bills on time, eating healthy, sticking to a plan. If you're feeling lazy and unproductive. Don't panic. Your body probably just needs a rest.... some you time.

When was the last time you thought about yourself? It isn't selfish to think about yourself, it's healthy. If you're anything like me, you'll feel guilty for letting others down. But guess what, you can't make everybody happy. [Does everybody make you happy, no] And if you're not looking after yourself, or your own happiness, or resting when your body is telling you it needs to, how can you make others happy?

I've only recently learnt to be more selfish, to do what i want to do instead of what everybody else wants to, to listen to my body. If you've not reached that stage yet, don't worry, you will. We only really reach this stage after being hurt by many people. By ex partners, by 'friends'...By growing tired. But it's not a bad thing. How can starting to look after yourself more be a bad thing?

Being hurt makes you stronger.

Without being knocked down, how do you know what it feels like to rise? How do you learn about yourself without others questioning you? You don't.

If you're not feeling quite yourself, if you're feeling low, if you're not quite up for going for drinks with your friend that you promised. If they are really your friend, they will understand. If they don't.... you did the right thing by doing what you wanted to do because clearly they don't respect you. They don't respect you or your feelings so you have to respect yourself. You have to look after yourself.

Now i'm not saying hide yourself away and don't see anybody. But wait, i kind of am because sometimes we need this. But make sure if you're feeling like this, really rest your mind and body.

Mental health is just as important as physical health.

Pamper yourself, book a spa break. If you're like me and can't afford spa breaks or manicures, buy a 99p face mask from Boots or your local Chemist. Write a to do list, give yourself a purpose. Do some exercise you've been telling yourself to do for the past year. Look up healthy recipes. Book something exciting for the future. Whether it be a night out, a meal, an activity from Groupon. Just anything. At least then you have something to look forward to. Something you have to be feeling healthy for. That way, you know to rest.

Be selfish.